For 3 months in 2025, I tried an experiment

What would it look like… If I wasn’t spiritual?

For those 3 months, I didn’t meditate, I didn’t watch any spiritual content or videos; didn’t attend any events; didn’t journal…

Here were my results: 

I still got downloads from my Spirit Guides. Perhaps they came a little less, but it was marginal. I assume this is just due to doing years of spiritual work. It’s like having muscles that don’t go away immediately if you stop working out.

What I REALLY noticed was the change in my emotions. I was much quicker to anger; I was much more judgmental of myself and others. It took more self-restraint, not to snap if something annoyed me. I didn’t like that part at all!

Surprisingly, I didn’t miss having a community… I used to attend so many events, but I was actually pretty happy being alone. Sometimes we have to miss something in order to seek it again. 

Another thing I didn’t like… I noticed I was eating more sugar to try and receive the same “high” that I got from meditating. This was NOT good. I felt heavier and energy and in body.

I didn’t miss journaling… I think because I would always journal when I was going through something dark or depressing. I did find myself wanting to be creative in other ways – like writing poetry.

I noticed I was more “jumpy” and in my masculine energy. I was more apt to wake up and check my email or jump straight into work. My old patterns of being “constantly productive” were coming back. I also checked social media more. 

During this time, I felt disconnected from my Spirit Guides. I imagine this is how most people feel before they really develop a relationship with their Guides. In some ways, it was a good experiment for me to understand my clients more — so I can serve them better.

Strangely, I actually felt more connected to “God”. I have always seen Spirit & God as from the same source. But I felt a difference between my Spirit GUIDES and God, if that makes sense. 

This was a very strange discovery that’s almost hard to put into words. It’s like I knew there was some omnipotent force watching over me, even though I wasn’t chatting to my Guides much. 

When I look back at my experiment, I think it was my soul trying to get back to baseline. I was peeling away the external layers; the things that may not be needed anymore. 

Here’s my conclusion:

Meditation is a non-negotiable for me. Without it, I’m less patient, more erratic, and less proud of who I am.

Spirituality can be a solo journey. I think my soul craves alone time so I can process all the energy that I am exposed to daily.

What about you? Have you ever gone through periods of your life where you didn’t meditate, or didn’t feel particularly spiritual? I’m curious to hear how it was for you!